We Don't Need to Know

By needing the answers to these questions I'm inevitably saying I don't trust God has my best interest in mind and that I need to control things to be safe. Did you catch that? To be safe....

One of the things I struggle with the most with God is needing to figure things out. I want to know what's going to happen, how, and why. It's taken me a really long time to realize that it's a matter of control and trust in my heart. By needing the answers to these questions I'm inevitably saying I don't trust God has my best interest in mind and that I need to control things to be safe. Did you catch that? To be safe....

What I've realized in my current season is I'm flat out not going to get those answers. God only reveals pieces of what's to come. Glimpses into what we can expect. He gives the promises to give us hope, to walk in expectation. But He won't reveal the whole picture until later. Why?

He gives the promises to give us hope, to walk in expectation. But He won't reveal the whole picture until later.

Think about it. If God gave you the whole thing all at once, would you need to pray, seek Him, seek help? No. You'd know what step to take every time. What places to move and how to act. You wouldn't need Him. And everything God does is about relationship. He wants to be needed, sought after... He wants to be a part of our every day life. He desires that we be vulnerable and transparent with Him. And that's where the safety comes in. We find protection in Him by understanding His heart for us. His longing to stand for us, with us. And by really putting it in our hearts that He is a God of His word. He never fails, falters, or lacks. He always, ALWAYS comes through.

It's a beautiful thing that the God of the universe wants to take part in our lives in such a way. That He won't fail us as many in our lives probably have. If I've learned anything in this season, it's been this right here. It's been in the letting go, the trust, the confidence in who my God is for me. I don't always understand, but He always shows me what I need to see at just the right moment. I've learned to seek Him, His will in every step I take. Even the small stuff. And as I do, He reveals more and more to me. When I tried to figure it all out all I had was turmoil and frustration. But when I let go and simply trusted Him things began to fall into place effortlessly. And at just the right time I could clearly see what He was doing. No sooner, no later, but at just the right time. The revelation came when He was ready to show me. Not when I decided I was ready to see it.

I'm grateful that He showed me this. I'm grateful He has my best interest at heart. And as I continue to walk this path with Him, I'm beginning to see His plan for the promises Hes given me. And you know what? It's way better than I imagined. And I'm so glad I waited. I'm glad i chose trust even when it hurt. I'm glad He gave me confidence in His word. His ways are always better than mine. And I've never seen that more clearly than in this moment.