Authentic Eve

It's so greatly underestimated what God has to say about relationships and companionship. He wants that for us. Made it for us. And describes woman for man as a desperate necessity. She is needed.

When God creates Eve, he calls her an ezer kenegdo.

"It is not good for the man to be alone, I shall make him an ezer kenegdo."

Genesis 2:18

Ezer kenegdo has proven to be notoriously difficult to translate but has been described as helper, companion, and help meet. But the closest description so far is sustainer beside him.

Ezer is only used 20 other places in the old testament and it's only ever used to describe God himself. Particularly when you need Him to come through for you desperately. A time when your life literally depended on Him.

It's so greatly underestimated what God has to say about relationships and companionship. He wants that for us. Made it for us. And describes woman for man as a desperate necessity. She is needed. Greatly. Survival without her is painful and dull. While man is God in action, woman is God at rest. It's the perfect picture of who He is. And just as woman gives man rest, man gives women action and adventure.

What a beautiful picture of woman. To be so necessary and important. Especially in a culture that minimizes women and objectifies them as merely something to obtain.

As I read through the book Captivating by John and Staci Eldredge I find myself more understood than ever. It speaks of things hidden in my heart I didn't know needed to be revealed. It convicts me of what I've allowed as a standard in my own relationships. And it makes me realize the true beauty in being authentically feminine.

Standing in the place I am i find it's easy to get hard. There's so much on my shoulders. So many battles to fight i was never meant to lift a sword for. And at times survival mode kicks in. I find I want to put up walls and slap on armor for war. But the walls don't stay up, the armor doesn't fit, and I find myself stumbling trying to hold the sword meant for man and not woman.

I'm thankful God steps in at those moments. He keeps my heart soft and with the most gentle whisper reminds me that, right now, He is my hero, my warrior. He reminds me why I am the way I am. Why I cry when my heart hurts. Why there's beauty in kindness and compassion. He reminds me why a woman's heart is so special and why in those quiet moments I long for what I do. There's no shame in the wants of a woman's heart. There is no desire He didn't put there.

What a beautiful thing that is to be so vital, so necessary. To feel so important. And what an amazing revelation to see within myself pieces of God. I'm grateful for the changes He continues to make in me. It's comforting to know I can remain in rest, I don't have to fight. And I'm thankful for the transparency He has gifted me with myself and with Him so i can have the freedom to be the authentic woman He created me to be. That's such a beautiful gift ♡